What I Wished I Never Had

• We Came As Romans
• Understanding What We’ve Grown To Be

Don’t catch me at the wrong time

Or you will feel my wrath

The one I wished I never had.

I need to rid myself of resentment

And every last bit of it

If I’m going to live up to the things I’ve written

I need to clear my mind of this anger

And all the rage that I’ve held near

If I’m going to live up to the words I’ve spoken.

But I haven’t yet,

Letting go is how I can start to fight my way

Out of this trench I’ve dug

In this war against myself

But I haven’t yet.

I wish I never had this demon inside

I wish I knew how to cast it out

I wish I never had this demon inside

I wish I knew how to cast it out

But I fear it will never leave me.

But I fear it will never leave me.

Letting go, just let it go

I know.

I know.

I know I need to let go

Of everything that has

Ever made me think of myself better

I’m not better than anyone else

Of anything that’s filled me with anger

That I have taken out on everyone else.

These demons will never leave me

I can only find ways to not let them out

These demons will never leave me

But I control them

Not the other way around.